SAFE TO GIVE FACE

SAFE TO GIVE FACE: LINDA MARY MONTANO 2018

 

FOR MARY'S MIRACLES:

SAFE TO GIVE FACE by  LINDA MARY MONTANO

My "request/theme/focus/asking"  was for  FACE OF GRACE at this last  Novena, Way of The Rose. It resulted  in my watching ways that I was trapped in: 

SAVING FACE

TURNING MY FACE( AND NECK)

HIDING MY FACE

TWISTING MY FACE AWAY

MAKING A "BALOON" FACE, (MY HINDU ADOPTED MOTHER'S WORD FOR BEING NEGATIVE)

NOT FACING UP

HIDING WRINKLE-AGING FACE

AVOIDING FACE

REFUSING  TO SHARE FACE-TIME

BEING RED-FACED, EMBARASSED

So weeks and weeks of the Novena allowed me to observe how much I had going on with my life around not facing up to issues that are current and those festering, rotting and maggotted that I carry from many centuries ago.

And occasionally  "giving face" without caring about my wrinkle-skin, my sins, my traumas, my shame;  without caring about the loss and  betrayal of my once supposed beauty, has been interesting and I thought my only miracle. Big enough, not greedily wanting more, it sufficed for  this novena because I knew that I had made sufficient spiritual progress in face show and tell. 

But there is more. This weekend I attended a Catholic Women Priest event an hour away and expected to learn and decide if I was to go that route (NO, i'm not!!!)  Actually I was not there to see if I was to become a Catholic  woman priest because Mother Mary the Face-Maker had her own secret mission for me. Not my will but hers!!!! Here is how it happened. But first, more about these Spiritual Amazons, these brave, still calling themselves CATHOLIC WOMEN but alas, calling themselves PRISTS!!! But the clincher is they are not just playing at it, they are ORDAINED  CATHOLIC WOMEN PRIESTS!!! It takes a Joan of Arc hutzpah to weather being called/titled a  heretic or to put up with being literally excommunicated from the institutional Catholic Church. So here I was in this group of about 80  once/still Catholics wanting to learn about how to be holy in a NEW WAY...wanting to have  a new-God/new-Prayer/new-Liturgy. And in this sacred circle already ripe for miracles I noticed a MIRACLE-MAN taking the form of a lover/person/once-partner/my ex-husband in re-incarnated form. There he was, sitting ahead of me, joining our table when we broke up into small groups...there he was, he forgetting  that we were divorced, not remembering that he was murdered in 1977....there he was  smiling the way he used to, looking exactly like he would if he had lived....there he was giving me loving-face like dear M used to give and when he said he was born in Kansas and I said  near  Shawnee Mission and he said, "Yes, near there, just  20 minutes away," and smiled, the miracle happened because: I GAVE MY "FACE"  to him. Feeling safe to woo-woo him with the information that he was a "walk-in" but  not using those terms and saying instead,  "John you remind me of someone I once loved very much.   Can I give you a hug?" He said, " Oh this happens to me all the time.  People think I'm someone they know." 

 And for the first time in 41 years, I gave someone my  face.

Mother Mary works in wonderous ways

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