WHY I AM A PERFORMANCE ARTIST
I GET IN TOUCH WITH MY ANCESTORS AND THEIR SIMILAR GIFTS TO MINE
I CONTINUE THE AESTHETIC GIFTS OF MY PARENTS
I CREATE SELF IMPOSED EXTRAORDINARY EXPERIENCES
I PRACTICE ENDURANCE AND ENDURANCE GRANTS ME BRAVERY FOR LIFE
I DUPLICATE JESUS'S TEACHINGS
I PRACTICE FRIGHTENING THINGS SO I CAN PREPARE FOR THE FEAR OF DYING
I DUPLICATE SOME OF THE ACTIVITIES I LEARNED WHILE IN THE CONVENT
I GIVE MYSELF ASSIGNMENTS LIKE HOW CAN I LEARN TO LOVE
I DUPLICATE THE SCULPTURES FOUND IN THE CATHOLIC CHURCH AS ART
I HONOR MY OUTSIDER GRANDMOTHERS WILD FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION
I SING AND PLAY INSTRUMENTS LIKE MY MUSICIAN PARENTS
I ACT WITH DEDICATION AND ENDURANCE LIKE MY FATHER AND MOTHER
I MAKE BELIEVE I ABLE TO HEAL MYSELF WITH ART JUST AS MY MOTHER HAD
I NATURALLY DUPLICATE SOME MAGICAL RITUALS THAT ARE SHAMANISTIC
I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION TO BE ART NOT JUST TO DO IT
I ACT LIKE AN UNSCHOOLED CHILD AND CALL THAT ART
I USE MY MANY TRAUMAS AS SECRET MATERIAL FOR MY PERFORMANCES
I FLY OUT OF MY LEARNED PERSONALITY BY DESIGNING MY OWN ACTIONS
I SCULPT MYSELF AND PERFORM AS A DUPLICATED CATHOLIC CHURCH STATUE
I USE MY SINS AND NEUROSIS AS MATERIAL FOR MY ART
I CURE MYSELF OF ANOREXIA VIA A VIDEO CONFESSION
I GROW CONFIDENT FROM THE APPLAUSE AND APPRECIATION OF MY AUDIENCES
I LEARN HOW TO MOURN AS ART
I LEARN HOW TO SPEAK AS ART
I LEARN HOW TO LOVE AS ART
I MEDICATE MYSELF WITH ENDURANCES
I DUPLICATE THE CATHOLIC CHURCH'S RITE OF CONFESSION AS ART
I INCLUDE LIVE CHICKENS IN MY ART
I INCLUDE CHICKENS IN MY ART AND CALL THEM ME
I FACE FEAR AS ART AS A REHEARSAL FOR THE TRIALS OF LIFE FEARS
I ASK AUDIENCES TO JOIN ME IN ACTIONS AND NOT JUST BE OBSERVERS
I LEARN ABOUT MY SUBCONSCIOUS DARKNESS VIA PLAY
I BECOME A PRIEST IN MY OWN SELF DESIGNED RELIGION
I RESOLVE SUBCONSCIOUS MONSTERS
I SEE MY LIFE AS A SYMBOLIC PLAY
I CONTRIBUTE TO THE REINTERPRETATION OF PATRIARCHIAL READING OF ART HISTORY
I GIVE UP MY PERSONALSELF LIES BY BECOMING OTHER PERSONAS
I DISSASOCIATE CREATIVELY
I EVOLVE FROM TAUGHT BELIEF TO SELF DETERMINATION
I USE ART TO EXPLORE THE CONCEPT OF EMPTINESS
I EMBRACE TERROR
I REALIZE THE NEED FOR EMPTINESS AND KNOW THAT MY WORK WILL GIVE THAT TO ME
I AM NOT EMBARASSED BY BEING DIFFERENT
I CLEAR MY TRAUMA AND KARMA
I SELF HYPTOMIZE MYSELF
I GIVE OTHERS PERMISSION FOR THEM TO FACE THEIR FEARS SAFELY
I BECOME MY OWN UNPAID TEACHER
I LIVE SIMPLY AND WITH HARDLY ANY FINANCIAL SUPPORT FROM MY ART
I FEEL CONFIDENT IN MY OWN INTUITIVE METHODOLOGY
I BEFRIEND TERROR
I PUBLICALLY DEMONSTRATE FIGHT-FLIGHT
I PUBLICALLY TURN FEAR AND TERROR INTO PLAY AND RELEASED ENERGY
I RENAME AND REDO MY PERSONAL TERRIBLE NARRATIVE AS PERFORMANCE
I CREATE SELF IMPOSED DIFFICULTIES TO HELP ME FACE LIFE CHALLENGES
I REFRAME TIME ACCORDING TO MY OWN NEEDS AND THERBY DO AWAY WITH TIME
I BECOME MY OWN HEALER, BOSS AND SHAMAN
I WANTED TO BE A SAINT AS A CHILD AND ART ALLOWS ME TO BE ONE
I ALLOW MYSLEF TO BE MESSY AND WRONG AS ART IN PUBLIC
I CONTINUE TO ADMIT MY GUILT, SHAME AND LIFE SINS
I CONFESS MY ADDICTION TO SUFFERING AND BY SO DOING IT RETREATS
I HOPE VIEWERS CAN HEAL AS I PERFORM AS THEIR SCAPEGOAT
I DIE AS ART AND THIS PRACTICE PREPARES ME FOR MY FINAL DEATH
I AM AN ARTIST: LIFE IS NOW MY ART
I AM AN ARTIST: SELF SAINTHOOD IS GUARNATEED
LINDA MARY MONTANO 2024, SAUGERTIES NY
