WHY I AM A PERFORMANCE ARTIST

 WHY I AM A PERFORMANCE ARTIST

I GET IN TOUCH WITH MY ANCESTORS AND THEIR SIMILAR GIFTS TO MINE

I CONTINUE THE AESTHETIC GIFTS OF MY PARENTS

I CREATE SELF IMPOSED EXTRAORDINARY EXPERIENCES

I PRACTICE ENDURANCE AND ENDURANCE GRANTS ME BRAVERY FOR LIFE

I DUPLICATE JESUS'S TEACHINGS

I PRACTICE FRIGHTENING THINGS SO I CAN PREPARE FOR THE FEAR OF DYING

I DUPLICATE SOME OF THE ACTIVITIES I LEARNED WHILE IN THE CONVENT

I GIVE MYSELF ASSIGNMENTS LIKE HOW CAN I LEARN TO LOVE

I DUPLICATE THE SCULPTURES FOUND IN THE CATHOLIC CHURCH AS ART

I HONOR MY OUTSIDER GRANDMOTHERS WILD FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION

I SING AND PLAY INSTRUMENTS LIKE MY MUSICIAN PARENTS

I ACT WITH DEDICATION AND ENDURANCE LIKE MY FATHER AND MOTHER

I MAKE BELIEVE I ABLE TO HEAL MYSELF WITH ART JUST AS MY MOTHER HAD

I NATURALLY DUPLICATE SOME MAGICAL RITUALS THAT ARE SHAMANISTIC

I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION TO BE ART NOT JUST TO DO IT

I ACT LIKE AN UNSCHOOLED CHILD AND CALL THAT ART

I USE MY MANY TRAUMAS AS SECRET MATERIAL FOR MY PERFORMANCES

I FLY OUT OF MY LEARNED PERSONALITY BY DESIGNING MY OWN ACTIONS

I SCULPT MYSELF  AND PERFORM AS A DUPLICATED CATHOLIC CHURCH STATUE

I USE MY SINS AND NEUROSIS AS MATERIAL FOR MY ART

I CURE MYSELF OF ANOREXIA VIA A VIDEO CONFESSION

I GROW CONFIDENT FROM THE APPLAUSE AND APPRECIATION OF MY AUDIENCES

I LEARN HOW TO MOURN AS ART

I LEARN HOW TO SPEAK AS ART

I LEARN HOW TO LOVE AS ART

I MEDICATE MYSELF WITH ENDURANCES

I DUPLICATE THE CATHOLIC CHURCH'S RITE OF CONFESSION AS ART

I INCLUDE LIVE CHICKENS IN MY ART 

I INCLUDE CHICKENS IN MY ART  AND CALL THEM ME 

I FACE FEAR AS ART AS A REHEARSAL FOR THE TRIALS OF LIFE FEARS

I ASK AUDIENCES TO JOIN ME IN ACTIONS AND NOT JUST BE OBSERVERS

I LEARN ABOUT MY SUBCONSCIOUS DARKNESS VIA PLAY

I BECOME A PRIEST IN MY OWN SELF DESIGNED RELIGION

I RESOLVE SUBCONSCIOUS MONSTERS

I SEE MY LIFE AS A SYMBOLIC PLAY

I CONTRIBUTE TO THE REINTERPRETATION OF PATRIARCHIAL READING OF ART HISTORY

I GIVE UP MY PERSONALSELF LIES BY BECOMING OTHER PERSONAS

I DISSASOCIATE CREATIVELY

I EVOLVE FROM TAUGHT BELIEF TO SELF DETERMINATION

I USE ART TO EXPLORE THE CONCEPT OF EMPTINESS

I EMBRACE TERROR 

I REALIZE THE NEED FOR EMPTINESS AND KNOW THAT MY WORK WILL GIVE THAT TO ME

I AM NOT EMBARASSED BY BEING DIFFERENT

I CLEAR MY TRAUMA AND KARMA

I SELF HYPTOMIZE MYSELF

I GIVE OTHERS PERMISSION FOR THEM TO FACE THEIR FEARS SAFELY

I BECOME MY OWN UNPAID TEACHER

I LIVE SIMPLY AND WITH HARDLY ANY FINANCIAL SUPPORT FROM MY ART

I FEEL CONFIDENT IN MY OWN INTUITIVE METHODOLOGY

I BEFRIEND TERROR

I PUBLICALLY DEMONSTRATE FIGHT-FLIGHT

I PUBLICALLY TURN FEAR AND TERROR INTO PLAY AND RELEASED ENERGY

I RENAME AND REDO MY PERSONAL TERRIBLE NARRATIVE AS PERFORMANCE

I CREATE SELF IMPOSED DIFFICULTIES TO HELP ME FACE LIFE CHALLENGES

I REFRAME TIME ACCORDING TO MY OWN NEEDS AND THERBY DO AWAY WITH TIME

I BECOME MY OWN HEALER, BOSS AND SHAMAN

I WANTED TO BE A SAINT AS A CHILD AND ART ALLOWS ME TO BE ONE

I ALLOW MYSLEF TO BE MESSY AND WRONG AS ART IN PUBLIC

I CONTINUE TO ADMIT MY GUILT, SHAME AND LIFE SINS

I CONFESS MY ADDICTION TO SUFFERING AND BY SO DOING IT RETREATS

I HOPE VIEWERS CAN HEAL AS I PERFORM AS THEIR SCAPEGOAT

I DIE AS ART AND THIS PRACTICE PREPARES ME FOR MY FINAL DEATH

I AM AN ARTIST: LIFE IS NOW MY ART

I AM AN ARTIST: SELF SAINTHOOD IS GUARNATEED

LINDA MARY MONTANO 2024, SAUGERTIES NY