SELF PROCLAIMED FORGIVENESS, Linda Mary Montano, 2019
You may have been confused by my recent email about, "Im sorry" that I just sent to your students!! Yes, I expressed forcefully that I was "sorry" for any mistakes I made while Face Talking your incredibly brilliant class. Why did I do that? The reason
is: for some time now, I have been "using" SAYING IM SORRY PUBLICALLY
as an equalizer and technique and bribe so that I can normalize the miscalculated the supposed specialness of the "artist as singular Genius." Especially the elder ones!!!!! It is terribly jealousy-making, competitive making, and not good theology
to leave others with this bad taste in their mouth of GOOD/BETTER/BEST. Not good.
I feel much harm has been done by the long practicing artist's arrogance, self aggrandizement and need to be seen and treated as heroic. We are ALL GENIUSES because we just got u this morning and opened our Divine Eyes!!!
By my asking for forgiveness before/during/after a public class, lecture, performance, I hope to confess my humanness, my weaknesses, my frailities publically to all viewers but especially to 'students' who are on the trajectory and learning curve of
not feeling personally empowered. Envy sucks.
May my faux-humility invite me and hopefully others to the joys of our ecstatic-nothingness.