LITTLE LINDA(LL)BECOMES PERFORMANCE ARTIST CHICKEN LINDA(PACL)BECOMES ROMAN CATHOLIC LINDA MARY(RCLM) CHANGE
LL was born into an orthodox Irish/Italian Catholic family and desired more than anything else to be a saint, no matter the cost.
LL was inspired by the colors, sights ,sounds and smells of the Roman Catholic rituals she attended with her family, not really understanding the Real Presence.
LL faints with ecstasy when the priest conscecrates the Host and lifts up the Real Body and Blood of Christ at Communion for the congregation to venerate.
LL and RCLM go into a small wodden box at the back of the church, face a male priest and tell him her sins so that she can feel her heart cleaned and clear.
LL enters the convent for two years, reaching heightened states of consciousness.
PACL becomes thoroughly disillusioned with the politics of the Church, the exclusivity of the practices, the oversights of the organization, the focus on action over contemplation, the humanness of the clergy and finds a place in the art world where she can use her talents, leadership and ability to transform energy creatively. PACL performs art actions bordering on the dangerous, transgressive, outrageous, and desires to become a performance art saint although she has no regard for the ethical,emotional, financial or physical consequences of her actions.
PACL makes poor judgments and indiscriminate dicisions in relationships and notices the ineffective consequences of living compulsively.
PACL begins to receive real life messages of mortality,death,close calls, bad choices, personal illnesses, impermanence and practices new age, eastern and earth-centered methods to achieve harmony and understanding of reality.
RCLM feels a need to unscramble the misinformation of early theological programming as taught to her in the 50's and gets a highly trained Catholic professional to help her in her theological re-emergence.
RCLM begins to use the Roman Catholic sacraments, specifically Confession, to clear her heart and mind of past secrets, guilts, shames and obscurations.
RCLM collages together the best aspects of eastern traditions and earth-centered theologies, current scientific research and post Vatican 11 teachings in her practice of Roman Catholicism.
RCLM drops the autobiographical centered performances of her past and includes the theological.She drops cynicism/irony(almost) for the mystical and the art of everyday life supercedes chosen endurances.
RCLM surrenders to and obeys Catholic teachings from her childhood but this time admits to and chooses to see where the patriarchial aspects are still operative. The truth is, she is there for the Sacraments, not the institution.
RCLM has transfered feminism, godess worship, earth mother rituals and psychic insights into a workable and coherent relationship with Mary, the Blessed Mother.
RCLM performs in collaboration with the Higher Artist. She no longer makes art her God but God her art.